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Big fish little fish

Will someone please please please line up the Egyptian soccer team and slap them silly for what just happened?!
HOW oh HOW do we, by we I mean the collective whole of Eygpt, its spectators and wanna be players, beat Sudan… an up and coming soon to be great team andddddddddd
FREAKING CAMEROOON….
Yeah that’s right I said FREAKING CAMEROON but only manage a tie with Zambia?
Zambia people! Zambia!
I’m peeved beyond recognition… It was like watching a monkey try to get a square peg in a round hole! This is what we always do. We beat the hardcore teams… give it our all and then fuck up the little fish… I mean really Zambia is a freaking Sardine compared to Cameroon… or Sudan
Tell me What happens when we meet the big beluga called Ghana?! Or Cote d’Ivoire?
ARGHHHHHHHH…
Meh… sillyness aside I will give Zambian dude mad props for the full fledged gymnastics act he pulled after scoring the goal. How do people jump that high without being attached to a wire suspended from up above? He had some major crouching tiger hidden dragon action going on! It was like a spring exploded in his backside propelling the glistening chocolate brown jack in the boxe into the abyss. Cartwheel after back flip after back flip after back flip and then a grand finale of a ten foot summersault in the air!

Forget trampolines at the local circus.... bring the Zambians!

The Suburban Disease

There’s this deep routed disease you particularly find in quaint little suburban towns that city people can’t seem to comprehend. It’s a phenomenon that seeps into the veins of its inhabitants and one breath at a time transforms lives. It’s a subtle take over marked by nothing hostile, stark or intrusive but it eventually causes the suburbanite to turn against everything that makes her who she is. This disease is called mediocrity. Having just enough means to sit comfortably in a state of limbo but falling short of enough to achieve greatness. The routine goes as follows
work on weekdays.. for about 8 hours
Nap after work for about an hour
Dinner and clean up about another hour and a half which brings us to 7 or 8 pm…
do a little studying on the side but mostly day dream in front of the books and eventually realize there is no point and so focus on white noise.
A white noise the compromises, for the most part, of meaningless gatherings, movies and books that provoke ZERO thought.
The words I NEED a new blah blah are now common place. And that thought… catching yourself thinking that way… trying to trick yourself into needing something just to give yourself a sense of purpose… well its pathetic…. Not only because it’s a fake sense of security and a flimsy attempt at avoiding to see the scream out loud fact that you are a waste of space and more importantly a decent amount of non perishable food substances that could potentially save an orphan or two but also because when you buy these lame things you try and find joy in them when you despise shopping. What’s to be said about a person who tries to force herself into superficiality. What’s to be said about a person who tries to convince herself that these things make millions happy everyday and so the flaw must be in her way of thinking… that there must be joy in them if only she were to look hard enough. To see myself slipping into that mentality is a frightening symptom… A symptom of the “The this is my life its comfortable and happy” disease. The “I don’t want more disease…” The “I’m bigger than wanting …” “ there is not point to any of it” disease. And while I can agree that to most it is a blessing I should be thankful for In my case I’m thinking its starting to become a shift from satisfaction to statusfucktion. And when the light bulb goes off and you see this its like you’re left feeling like you are the reason for your unhappiness. An internal struggle. You potentially have it in you to do whatever it is you want to do. But the question is… what do you want to do? Where is the passion? Where are the things that will make you want to get up in the morning and how do you find them? But because you have an ok thing going… a decent job, a reasonable social life, a family that loves you and a routine.. you wait…You wait for Godot to come and guide you… but Godot doesn’t come and you don’t toss it all in the air and take a leap of faith… So you’re stuck in an infinite state of suspended limbo. Neither here nor there and let the disease take you over. You succumb to it. And soon enough you’re just a shell or a skeleton of who you once were. And chances are… IF and when Godot comes… you’ll make excuses… a million reasons why you have a good thing just right here.

The land mark forum

A friend of mine suggested I attend The land mark forum which seems to have completely transformed him into a happy bubbly less self analytical guy. I obliged and went to experience and explore with an open mind and heart and possibly become enlightened. I tried my best not to be skeptical until I started to feel like it was one big huge marketing plan… it almost sounded like they were saying “sign up and forget drugs sex and alcohol.. what you want is happiness… and we have it but question is… how much are you willing to pay for it?” And well as soon as I made that connection there was no hope. It was like the American Embargo against Cuba had positioned itself right between what was being presented and my brain. I couldn’t take what they were saying seriously but alas before fort Knox became secure I took, two things with me and arrived at another two pretty big revelations:

1) There are things you know and there are things you don’t know.
There are things you know that you don’t know but there are also things you don’t know you don’t know.

2) Think of all the things you want to accomplish. Lets say… Career fulfillment. And think of how that would make you feel if you got it. Lets say it would make you feel accomplished.. now think of what would happen if in your mind you threw out the necessity of having a good job in order to feel that way and went straight to the feeling accomplished… wouldn’t that in turn make finding a good job a more pleasant experience and also be a great source of motivation and energy?
[Enter sigh and day dreaming thoughts commence]
3) What if someone told you that you are the shackles on your mind. You are what allows your mind to see more experience more and feel more. What if you became conscious of the fact that you’re constantly trying to mould and fit your mentality into a predefined box and then made a consciencious effort to break free of that mentality. What would you be able to accomplish? The answer would be anything. Impossible is nothing and everything is possible.

4)Be open minded and open to all but be weary that too much open mindedness can have your brains fall out. i.e a search for truth means no boundaries but no boundaries mean you can reach any conclusion… what if you are unable to process that truth?

Modern mantra

Confidently go where your dreams take you. Live the life you’ve imagined.

Rest in reason and move in Passion

‘Your soul is oftentimes a battle field, upon which your reason and your
judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite. Would that I could be
the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord and the rivalry of
your elements into oneness and melody. But how shall I unless you yourselves be
also the peacemaker nay the lovers of your elements?
Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.
If either your sails or your rudder be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas.
For reason ruling alone is a force confining and
passion unattended is a flame that burns to its own destruction.

Therefore let
your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion that it may sing and let it
direct your passion with reason, that your passion may live through its own
daily resurrection, and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.

I would have you consider your judgment and your appetite even as you would two
loves guests in your house.
Surely you would not honor one guest above the
other; for he who is more mindful of one loses the love and the faith of
both.
Among the hills when you sit in the cool shade of the white poplars
sharing the peace and serenity of distant fields and meadow then let your heart
say in silence ‘god rests in reason”
And when the storm comes, and the mighty
wind shakes the forest, and thunder and lighting proclaim the majesty of the
sky. Then let your heart say in awe ‘god moves in passion’
And since you are a breath in god’s sphere and a leave in god’s forest you too should rest in reason and move in passion.’
~Gibran khalil gibran's The Prophet